April is Stress Awareness Month and I have been wondering what to write. I have started this on several occasions only to stop, read it back and give up. Then it hit me, like a pair of freezing cold feet touching your legs in the night. Firstly, those pair of cold feet belonged to my daughter, and secondly and more importantly I have decided to write about what makes me stressed and try to put in some type of order.
So here goes, I do hope you enjoy reading this and can relate in some way to some of the points.
PS, these are in order too, from most stressful to least. It is quite funny to read that my dog is causing the most stress!
- My dog, the wonderful and loving Suzy, is causing my biggest stress bursts at the moment. We moved to a new house recently and Suzy is peeing inside! My dad may say that she is only marking her territory, but why does she have to do it inside? I get so angry with her and when she sees me coming, she slinks away to hide under the table or in the bathroom. I am so paranoid that my house sticks of dog and now I am paranoid it smells like dog pee! It may still be ‘fresh’ out but the back door is now wide open so that we do not have this again. And her name has been changed to Pee Pee Pansy for a while.
- My weight is something which I also get anxious about which in turn causes stress. I need to lose about a thousand pounds but I am an emotional eater. I eat for and with emotion. It is a life battle I will always had and always will, however I am only now finding comfort in my own skin which is shifting the focus. The book ‘On Eating’ by Suzie Orbach has been recommended and I love it. A simple read and easy to digest (excuse the pun) points make sense to me. I have started running again, well more like a ru-lk or a wa-n, but I am doing it. And once I am home again and glugging down the water I feel so alive. So running is my stress buster, along with the long soaks in the bath.
- Starting The English Beagle was stressful, running it is stressful and trying to make it a success is stressful. A certain level of stress is required as it keeps us on our toes, but I find myself using that stress as a determining factor to keep striving for excellence. The stress comes in, I turn it around to my advantage, and out goes new and exciting work. At the moment I am working on exhibiting at the Christmas in July PR Event and I am secretly petrified as I am putting the brand on display. I am using this stress a standard that I must achieve. I want to be the best brand on display and the best gift store there, all the while my knees tremble with fear.
- Being a single parent can stressful. There is no back up. My daughter has slept in my bed for a good couple of years now and at first it was comfort for her, now it is comfort for me. I love listening to her snore quietly while I drift off and the cold feet that attack me in the night. Right now, I love being single parent and do not find it stressful, yes there is more to do and manage, but when you have 3 calendars like me nothing is forgotten, well almost nothing. I have her all to myself and I know that no matter what happens, she will also be snoring softly next to me at the end of the day.
- The last stressful point I can think of right now is making sure I have the right wine in the fridge for a surprise visit from my mother. Mom always says on her last day here that she is looking forward to going home, Cape Town, so that she can have a decent glass of wine. Maybe I should put this down as the 1st point as I have 2 weeks left to find her decent wine!