Chapter 2: What have I got myself into?

Audrey Williams

December 2017

No matter how many times I have thought to myself that I need to sit down and write the next chapter of ‘Becoming a Mumtrepeneur’, I always find an excuse not to. It is not that I don’t want to write, it is because I am too scared to sit back and analyse what I have done over the past couple of months.

The English Beagle has been my baby for a very long time now and since launching 2 months ago certain aspects have gone from strength to strength. Others have made me sit back and wonder what I am doing wrong and is this actually for me.

Let’s start with some of the good things… Social media is growing and I am amazed at how quickly it has taken off. I just love the interaction with people; whether it is on a competition or a picture of Suzy, there is always a friendly face or comment. I am even beginning to notice the regulars. Although I have taken part in far too many Christmas Fairs this year, the feedback has been great as people recognise the name and tell me how much they like the social media platforms and the website. It is at times like this that I know that I must be doing something right.

When working in retail, you have to plan well in advance to ensure that you stay both on trend and ready for anything. Thankfully my gut instinct and passion for product development has led me to partner up with several brands, including Molly & Monty, Selfie Clothing and Port & Lemon, for exclusive lines in 2018. Watch this space as I am so excited about them.

Now onto a negative aspect. I work from my home office and although I do have some wonderful chats with Sophia on the phone about work and life, I miss the background ‘jibber jabber’ of an office environment. I have come to learn that working for yourself in a start-up business can be very lonely. This is compounded by the fact that I am a single parent so there is no one to talk to in the evenings. My poor parents just listen and give me all the support I need and I am sure my mother has developed selective hearing.

I am also tired. There is no other words to describe this feeling. I try to maintain a good work life balance even when the office is just off the lounge and I can hear every time the phone goes ‘bing’. It is very hard to stop thinking about it: what is happening? What order has just been placed? If I pack it now will I make the last post today? I catch myself lying awake at night reaching for my phone to see the latest on Instagram and Facebook, only to put it down and tell myself that this is the reason why I am tired.

And now, I sit here and read back and think to myself that this is what I wanted to do. This is what I dreamed to do and I will succeed. Rome was not built in a day, so why should The English Beagle be any different. Even for all the tiredness and loneliness I feel, I dream one day The English Beagle will have its name up in lights and everyone will know about it. So next time I feel tired I am going to sneak in a nap before rushing off on the school run or pick up the phone and call someone for a chat when feeling lonely. Maybe I will call someone for a chat while lying in bed! Now that is a dream.

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